Monday, May 31, 2010

Is Netanyahu an idiot, or simply incompetent?

Benjamin Netanyahu - Israel's Prime Minister - is in "deal with the fall out" mode. Again. First there's the continual building in East Jerusalem. The announcement of which was done while US VP Joe Biden was around. Mr Netanyahu had to deal with a lot of fall out from that fiasco. Then there's those stolen passport - Israel allegedly pinched a bunch of passports to help in the assassination of a terrorist. That created a lot of anger at Israel.

And now the Israeli's have shot up an aid convoy, killing 10. While Mr Netanyahu is in Canada (Stephen Harper, Canada's PM, is Mr Netanyahu's latest political beau. Something that makes more than a few Canadians a tad uncomfortable). The fallout from this is, as you might expect, swift and angry. There's no excuse for what Israel did. If the convoy was bringing weapons in, Israel should have used different tactics - ones that would provide it cover in the international arena. As it is, Israel's whiny denunciations about aid convoys bringing weapons to Gaza look hollow, contrived and convenient. Even if some in the convoy shot at them, no amount of proof will assuage the distrust this stupid, ill-conceived raid has prompted.

It all begs the question: is Mr Netanyahu an idiot, or is he merely incompetent?

Carolyn Ann

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Racing Bonehead of the Week

It's time for Racing Bonehead of the Week!

In an unexpectedly close contest, a clear winner emerged this morning when Sebastian Vettel attempted an amazingly boneheaded maneuver when he tried to overtake his teammate Mark Webber. That he only took himself out of the race is amazing - he almost took Mr Webber out as well! Mr Vettel's momentary inspiration allowed Lewis Hamilton and Jensen Button to take the first and second places, leaving Mr Webber - who was onto an easy win - in a problematic third.

Moments later, Mr Button did his level best to emulate Mr Vettel. In doing so, he gains third place as Racings' bonehead.

Second place has to go to Danica Patrick and her odious outburst at her team. In blaming them for the failings of her car, she firmly told the world where she stands: for herself. Never mind that her early promise has devolved into semi-interesting talent; if she fails at her job, it must be the team. Not for her the trials and tribulations of pulling a finish, never mind a win, in brutal competition. If her team fails to deliver the winning car, what's a girl to do? Be a bitch and moan about it, apparently. Instead of taking her inspiration from Michael Schumacher (who once won a race with only one gear available), no, her inspiration comes is clearly Sarah Palin. Someone else who blames everyone else for her own mistakes, misjudgments and nonsense.

So, in order: Sebastian Vettel, Danica Patrick and Jensen Button.

What a weekend! Such competition. Our winners indulged in behavior amateurs and two year olds would be ashamed of.

Carolyn Ann

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Buy a dress

I was perusing "What to Wear for the Rest of Your Life (Ageless secrets of style)" by Kim Johnson-Gross (2010) when I came across this quote:
Why see a shrink? You'll feel so much better if you spend the money on a new dress.
-- Evelyn Johnson, Ms Johnson-Gross' mother.

:-)

Ms Johnson-Gross also noted that "many look to Michelle Obama and Nancy Pelosi as style mentors." Now that's something none of the Republicans can fault. (Although I have no doubt they'd try.)

Carolyn Ann

Possessive Pronouns

A weary skeptical teacher looks at her cheeky student as he says "Possessive Pronouns? Um, iPod, yourPod, theirPod?" :-D

It's here.

(I saw it in this month's American Scholar, on p65.)

Carolyn Ann
How the heck do I communicate when I don't know the language?


Friday, May 28, 2010

Overheard...

A chap, in Barnes & Noble, with his daughter (about 10), and his son (about 8): "Don't rush me! I'm the boss!" A skeptical look passed over the son's face. The daughter responded, "Yeah, right!" Dad, looking quite perplexed, replied, "I'm your Dad!" His daughter acknowledged this with a sort of 'that much is obvious' sigh "Well, yeeah..."

Dad looked at me, confused. What could I say?

Carolyn Ann

Thursday, May 27, 2010

A surprisingly good start for Messrs. Cameron & Clegg

That diabolical (British) National ID scheme is to be given a well-deserved boot up the backside, and sent packing.

Suggested a few years ago by Labour after 9-11, the scheme would be "voluntary". But if you needed a passport or a drivers' license - your information went into a large government-run database. The Labour Party was quietly implementing a police state; there's no other reason for such a database to exist.

Unfortunately they are keeping the identity card scheme for foreign nationals. (I won't hold my breath waiting for any outrage to force that to its own, much warranted, demise.)

Still, you take progress where you can, these days.

Idiots. A special kind of idiot.

It takes a special sort of idiot to play with fire. Brazilian evangelical Christians are auditioning for the role.

The Brazilian Christians are targeting North Koreans for conversion to Christianity. Notwithstanding the arrogance of proselytizing, I wonder if these people have given thought to what might happen to anyone they do convert? The newly converted will be tossed into a cauldron, for re-education. The Brazilians will go home.

Of course, they thank their God for putting North Korea and Brazil in the same group. They think divine intervention did that. The stupidity of that beggars belief; but belief is what they work with. (If God could do that, couldn't he arrange a convenient revolution in North Korea? I'm sure an all-powerful deity could manage a small revolution in a small, impoverished nation.)

Ah well, evangelical Christians have never been noted for their usage of common sense, general sensibility, clarity of thought or any real coherence. Mysticism, whimsy, arrogance and an amazing capacity to deny what is in front of their eyes. As an aside, evangelicals always remind me of that saying "the biggest success of the devil is persuading people he doesn't exist". Evangelical Christians often mistake their Satan for their God. The Brazilian Evangelicals will condemn those they contact. If that's not a definition of evil, I'd really like to know what is.

Carolyn Ann

Korea

It's becoming quite precarious out there. China is finally waking up to its responsibilities as a world leader. Russia has started to become concerned. What does it take to get two arrogant, dictatorial powers to pay attention? The very real possibility that a nuclear bomb might go off.

With China involved, I have a feeling that the situation will cool down. If they have any sense they'll tell Pyongyang to cool it.

The whole situation is not helped by the revelation that Kim Jong-Il, North Korea's president, visited, and congratulated, the submarine crew that sank the Cheonan. Nor is it helped by Pyongyan saying it's abrogating their accords and agreements with South Korea.

There's no real tit-for-tat, fortunately. That would lead to all-out war in very short order. The North Koreans will, I think, be surprised to find that their tactic of belligerence, followed by angry agreement to resume talks or trade or whatever won't work, this time. The South Koreans are, rightly, a little too cross with them right now. With the joint US/South Korea war exercises going on in the same place as the Cheonan sinking, I wouldn't be surprised if the North Koreans accidentally lost a submarine.

Carolyn Ann

Gossipmongering

Here's one to upset a few: the Huffington Post, and a few others, are reporting that Matt Lauer, the TV anchor, might have had a non-sexual affair with a transgendered woman.

Woop de doo.

Who sodding cares? (Plenty of folk, apparently.)

The source of the trouble: Hollyscoop.com. A celebrity blog that seems to be a nasty collision between Perez Hilton and the National Enquirer. The NY Post picked up the story a few days later.

The lass in question, one Alexis Houston, doesn't help matters. She claims Whitney Houston as a relative, and has a fairly wild story about her surgery. There's also an interesting allegation of fraud. She also held a sidewalk press conference to say she'd never had sex with Mr Lauer.

I don't care about any of it, but the story has some interesting bits to it. Ms Houston says that "her privacy and personal space has been invaded". Yeah, it has. That's what gossip sheets do: they invade your privacy, for a juicy story. This one would be salacious enough - one of America's Mr Reliables, having an affair? That's news. That the lass he's allegedly involved with has an interesting - and very gossip-worthy - history? That she might be related to a real celebrity? Even better. Who has accused her of defrauding someone? It's the story that keeps on giving. Ms Houston had her privacy invaded? What did she think she was doing, holding a press conference? Telling the press there's no story? You might as well hang a banner on you saying "I am the story!" She did, and she is.

Some people might be annoyed that her personal history is being paraded; they feel it shouldn't be anyone's concern. That's perfectly correct, but since when have people cared about such things? People magazine exists for a reason, Page 6 of the NY Post exists for a reason. People like to read about other people. They like to know what the various celebrities are up to. Heck, at one point in Bush's presidency, more people knew the names of the American Idol judges than knew he was president!

Getting mad at a gossip site and a salacious newspaper because they draw attention to someone's history is about as useful as getting mad a wall for being where it is. It's about as productive, too. People gossip. They always have, they always will. The most you can hope for is that you're not the target of the interest.

Carolyn Ann

Time and Starship Troopers

Every time I read the online edition of Time magazine, I remember the movie Starship Troopers. After every news event, the TV blares "Want to know more?", followed by some links that, presumably, take you to other sources. Time magazine peppers their stories with little links "See Top 10 Democratic defections", "Comment on this story" and so on. The difference between Time and Starship Troopers is the lack of drama, and the totalitarian-esque government behind Starship Troopers. (Mind you, if George Bush and Karl Rove were still in charge, I wouldn't have written that last sentence; I would have drawn attention to how accurately the fictional government was to the real one...)

Carolyn Ann


Wednesday, May 26, 2010

O'Keefe & Crew escape jailtime

I see James O'Keefe and his cohorts have pleaded guilty. They were the twits who tried to spy on a Senator.

Given what they did, they got off light: no jail.

Carolyn Ann

Miranda Meet Odd Logic

Senator Sheldon Whitehouse (D-RI) had this to say about the forthcoming tinkering with Miranda Rights: "I think it is something that one could legislate because it is essentially a judge-made rule," said Sen. Sheldon Whitehouse, a member of the Senate Judiciary Committee.
"It is based on a constitutional doctrine that we can't tamper with. But I think that if the court were to evaluate its judge-made rule in light of a strong consensus from Congress, they may find that the law is actually consistent with the underlying constitutional principle and that the judge-made rule can... adapt to it."
Wow. Talk about convoluted!

So, we have a constitutional right that can't be tampered with, but Congress and the President are willing to tamper with it, and it's popular everywhere, the Supremes might actually bend a bit on this. Bend? If Justices Roberts, Scalia and Alito weren't nailed to their ideologies, they'd fall over. Those guys are the anemometers of the right. In case they didn't attend Civics 101: Congress can pass a law with zero no votes (not likely, but it could happen; that woefully misnamed Patriot Act came close, for instance), and still could be unconstitutional. Or in the case of the Patriot Act, anti-constitutional. In other words: the popularity of a law has no bearing on its constitutionality. (Right wing tokens notwithstanding.)

All that being said, the Miranda process has proven itself to have a couple of flaws. The first one is that if a suspect starts talking, then asks for a lawyer, and continues telling all - what he or she says can be inadmissible. I'm not sure, but I think that loophole has been patched. The other failing in the Miranda process is serious, and until recently, generally unnoticed: the public safety exception.

If you're a terrorist and get caught (because your attack failed, for instance), law-enforcement has the right to question you for some indeterminate amount of time. It's that "indeterminate" thing that's so bothersome.

The right wing went nuts when the FBI read the Christmas Bomber his rights. They thought such an act to be, well, politically useful. (I do find it interesting how these people hold the Constitution near and dear, except when it's inconvenient.) I don't know what happened - only those involved know, and they're not exactly forthcoming - but it seems to me that they were playing Mr Farouk's (and Faisal Shahzad's) situation as best they could, all things considered. They exercised the public safety exception, but if they'd gone much further, as the right wing wanted (justice dispensed by popular vote; now there's a concept), the authorities could have strayed into dubious constitutional territory. Reading someone their rights is an important step in the judicial process.

A public safety exception is an effort to reconcile the needs of the constitution with the need to keep the public safe. Britain has had a clearly defined public safety exception to its judicial process for a long time; I believe Spain and France both have lengthy periods where you aren't subject to the usual judicial constraints. The simple fact is: it's not against the public interest to keep a suspected or alleged terrorist out of the normal judicial process in order to question them. There is, however, a very grey limit to that length of time, and there are strict restrictions on how a prisoner should be treated. You can't define the time as "the rest of their lives" (many on the right would like to do that) and you can't torture them, for instance.

It's good effort is being made to clearly define the public safety exception. But we shouldn't try to figure out how to avoid Miranda altogether! The ACLU will probably have a fit; that's fine. It's as it should be - any law that clearly defines the public safety exception must withstand constitutional scrutiny. But we cannot, clearly cannot, continue to have the authorities hampered by uncertainty. At some point, someone will make a mistake - that's a given. The chances of that happening will be lessened if there are clearly defined rules on what a public safety exception is, and what it can do.

One thing's for sure: the Republicans will negotiate in semi-good faith. And then they will use their own decisions against the Democrats. You'll not find a more cynical, avaricious and deceitful bunch.

But at least the public safety exception will be defined. And that's good. Just don't let Senator Sheldon Whitehouse near constitutional logic, again.

Carolyn Ann

(Edit: Changed title.)

Sarah Palin's Endorsement

The Huffington Post has taken emphasizing any links a candidate has with Sarah Palin. If she has endorsed a candidate, so much the better: he (and the occasional she) becomes her candidate. So we get headlines such as "Disastrous Palin-Backed Candidate Upset In GOP Primary".

I can't help but wonder what a Palin Endorsement means. Does it come in the form of a long, meaningless sentence? Does it quit half way through? Does it mean the candidate will quit office when the going gets tough? Does it mean the candidate has a passing relationship with ethics? Or could it mean that the candidate is incapable of handling a softball interview with Katie Couric? I wonder if their campaign managers ask for monthly reading lists? What happens if something more erudite than "People" turns up on it? Do they panic if something more thought-provoking then "Reader's Digest" appears on the list?

It does make you wonder.

Carolyn Ann

Update: Apparently, it might mean all of those things...
Another update: There's a trend, here...

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

The address has been changed so you can't find it...

The Amityville Horror house recently went on the market for $1.15M. I'm not particularly interested [in that], but these two statements caught my eye (I bolded the addresses):
The five-bedroom house at 108 Ocean Avenue, Amityville, gained notoriety through the film based on the story of the Lutz family, who moved in in 1975
. -and-
It has had several owners since the 1970s. The address has been changed from the original 112 Ocean Avenue in a effort to keep onlookers away.
I guess that plan didn't quite work, did it?

Carolyn Ann

Brit Hume: Where's the oil?

Brit Hume, the Fox News anchor, recently asked "where's the oil?" He couldn't see it, so there must not be an ecological disaster. Right? Right. <-- ABC News link.

It takes a special sort of idiot to ask that sort of question.

Carolyn Ann

One or two steps closer...

The Korean peninsula took a step or two closer to a shooting war, today. South Korea has re-designated North Korea as its principal enemy, and North Korea is making warlike noises, as well taking ejecting South Korean officials. But not workers, which is a frightening little bit of information. I wouldn't put it past North Korea to use South Korean workers as hostages; in fact, I'd be surprised if they hadn't started making that a reality. The US and South Korea are starting some war exercises, with an emphasis on anti-submarine tactics. South is also relaunching its psychological initiative.

The markets are jittery. In this case, I think we can ignore the markets; it won't determine if there's shooting on the peninsula.

China is not doing a thing; unless you count meaningless platitudes.

North Korea loves to tweak the US and South Korea. It pushes the patience of every nation it can; merely so they can say "We did this! (And got away with it. Aren't we clever buggers?)" In typical passive/aggressive fashion, they then blame everyone else for their actions. Oh but Pyongyang does love to play the victim. Unfortunately, they might have gone too far in sinking the Cheonan, killing 46 sailors.

At this point we can only hope that the commanders at the front are keeping their heads. Because it looks like North Korea is hell-bent on starting a war.

Carolyn Ann

Patrick Demarchelier

Looking through the April 2010 Vogue (US edition), I was struck by my immediate recognition of various photographers. There's a small Helmut Newton, a larger Annie Leibovitz, and a couple of spreads by Patrick Demachelier. He's a chameleon; his pictures seem to be a synthesis, a reply, a study or be inspired by both Mr Newton and Ms Leibovitz. Often, the way he lights his subjects, and how he handles color, reminds me of the Pre-Raphealites.

Mr Demachelier has two spreads in that Vogue; one is of Gisele Bündchen, the other about Kate Dillon. (That one has the an unlikely sub-heading: "Kate Dillon, the plus-size supermodel and Harvard-educated policy wonk, is brilliant with figures." Score one for feminism, then. Or perhaps they simply hired the guy who writes Playboy's subheadings.) The article about Ms Bündchen is full of photographs that remind me of other pictures, and other photographers; the title page has one that strongly reminds me of the famous picture of Arnold Schwarzenegger sitting on a horse, on a beach. It was taken by Annie Leibovitz a long time ago. Mr Demachelier's image isn't quite as sculptural, but it is evocative. It seems like a mixing of Ms Leibowitz, and Dante Gabriele Rosetti!

The image on page 222 is striking; it's very Helmut Newton, but without the sexual tension. Mr Newton always hid his models behind his depiction of their sexuality; who they were was almost irrelevant. Mr Demachelier plays with concepts and produces an image that is balletic, composed and full of life. We have direct hints of the woman, Ms Bündchen, but she is not sexualized, or depicted as anything but a beautiful woman. There are some other amazing images; in one, she's in a flowing gown, but with her breasts clearly outlined, and 7 months pregnant. It's easy to perceive it as a reply to Ms Leibovitz's depiction of the pregnant, and naked, Demi Moore. Yet another image shows Ms Bündchen looking behind her as she climbs some stone steps. She's wearing a simple white top, and a pair of decorated (Robert Cavalli) green shorts; they are tight, similar to those teenage girls like to wear. (Shorts are hot, this year.) They have a similarly patterned red detail just below the waist. Red sandals complete the look. With her long flowing hair, and a simple, slightly battered, linen fedora, she looks amazing. I can well imagine the Pre-Raphaelites falling over themselves to paint an image like this; in the photograph she defies boundaries, and evokes teenage fantasies: what young lad would not want a beautiful Aphrodite to look back at him as she strolls up to the heavens? (To satisfy the pedants, some young lasses might like that, too. :-)

I could go on an on. I particularly like the double-page photo of Ms Dillon; the pose (she is reclining the wrong way on a chaise-longue) is definitely Annie Leibovitz meets Dante Rosetti; the lighting reveals and entices, and Ms Dillon is in a simple wine colored dress (Hervé Léger by Max Azria), with a shade darker lipstick. The shoes are black, high-heeled Mary-Janes; just visible is a tattoo on Ms Dillon left leg. With her hair pulled back, the image becomes a two-dimensional sculpture. The background, a dusky grey, neither distracts nor enhances; it's merely there, supporting Ms Dillon's starring role. She gazes into the distance, to the viewers right. A striking image that is compelling; it's difficult to look away from it!

Patrick Demarchelier is a very clever chameleon. His work never quite says "this is a Demarchelier", and yet it does. You can see his influences, and he definitely plays with perception. He teases your memory of photographs, and can spark a conversation between two images. He can hint, or outright suggest, that all is not what it appears to be. And yet it is; he never fails to reveal the woman he's photographing. It's all quite intriguing.

Carolyn Ann

Monday, May 24, 2010

Anticlimatic

I have a profound sense of anti-climax. The day is done, some studying I had to do has been completed, and we're one step closer to solvency.

I still feel a bit, well, edgy. Like the adrenalin hasn't faded, yet. Or something.

Carolyn Ann

The mouse survived. And has been evicted.

With Cousin in doing her cat thing (meek and mild Cousie? Being a fierce predator? I guess so...), the mouse re-appeared. Oscar and Ebony sat watching, waiting for their chance. The mouse hid in some cables, and then made a dash for freedom. Right into the waiting paws of Maxine. The poor thing basically gave up; Max pushed it this way, and that. It gave lackluster responses. So I donned an old pair of leather work gloves, and scooped it up. I put her in an overgrown bit of the garden (there're plenty of those!) and it was still there when I checked. It's still alive, but I'm not sure for how long.

At least it has a chance at living a little bit longer.

The cats, to put it mildly, are really disappointed. Max and Oscar Oops. That should have been deleted along with the sentence they were in!

Carolyn Ann

North Korea. Again.

North Korea, the enigma wrapped in a mystery. And all that is wrapped in a colossal ego and an erratic logic. Enigmas and mysteries can be explained logically, once enough is understood about them. Colossal, fragile egos and a highly erratic train of thought? That's impossible.

North Korea recently sank a South Korean warship, killing 46 sailors. And they're saying that the declaration of this is tantamount to declaring war. At least they've realized they can't actually ignore it - the Internet has appeared in North Korea, too. President Obama has said the US is behind South Korea; this is not a case of South Korea needing binoculars to see the US. Apparently US war forces in the region have escalated their readiness; from what I understand the DMZ has always been considered a war zone, just normally quite one.

Right now North Korea is a headache China does not want. But the North Koreans seem to be hell bent on restarting the war; I'm not sure what they hope to gain by doing so. I don't know if they know! If there is war, they could blow up Seoul. Lots of dead people, and a lot of nuclear weapons suddenly on their way to Pyongyang. It's in President Obama's defense doctrine: nuclear weapons will be used against those who use them on allies. It's a long-standing policy of the United States, too. Perhaps Pyongyang is betting that they can go just short of a nuclear war?

China mollycoddles the Communist North; the last they actually need (or want) is a unified Korea. Perhaps Pyongyang is thinking that the Chinese would launch an economic attack and a unleash a cyberwar on the US? Sell all that debt, and the bottom drops out of the US economy; reducing the US to asking for aid from North Korea, and China. Fat chance. The economy would go on a proper war footing - not the "spend, spend, spend!" idiocy of the Bush War "Economy". It wouldn't make a jot of difference to the US economy.

The cyberwar bit is a bit more "interesting". It would be an all-out effort, on both sides. We'd definitely get to see who had satellite shoot-down capability. (My guess? Until Bush and Dick, the US was no slouch when it came to defending itself.)

A real shooting war between the two Koreas is possible. The US has a permanent presence on the DMZ, so it would be involved. China doesn't need a war there; it would have to ship troops into Afghanistan, to defend its copper mines and other mineral mines. Tasks the US and its allies are currently doing. Its economy would take a massive hit; it might be the factory to the world, but factories can be built anywhere. Economically, it can only hurt the US if the US plays by the rules - if national interests are at stake, you can bet the rule book will become a very nice addition to the nearest trash bin. Besides, China is just starting to figure out what it means to be a world power. Somewhere in those anonymous halls of power, someone important has realized that the guide book China uses is out of date. Whether they survive long enough to make that very important realization known is a definite concern. China is not known for welcoming dissent.

I think what will happen will be the usual brinkmanship. North Korea will pound its drums; South Korea and the US will prepare. China will lean on Pyongyang a little, and North Korea will announce that it's ready for the 6 party talks. Which it will dally with for a year or two, before undermining them, and try to influence the 2012 US elections.

But right now, all it takes is for a corporal or a sergeant to mishear some orders. Or North Korea to push its luck just that bit too far. (That's the most likely scenario.) And no one will have a choice.

If only China would step up to the plate and be a regional power. Instead of pretending it's one.

Carolyn Ann

Running to stay still

Both this morning and this afternoon, I had cause to remember the old adage "it's not how you play by the rules, it's how you play the rules".

So far that light at the end of the tunnel doesn't look like a train. For an hour or so, it seemed to be a rather large locomotive - going at a fast rate and far too close for comfort. It didn't help that a bank was busy making me the damsel tied to the tracks. (Well, I was wearing a dress when I spoke to them! And my lipstick was a dark color; just like you see in those old movies. :-) )

One thing I couldn't help notice: the entire financial negotiation system is not designed to help you. It doesn't even help the bank! I kept this observation to myself. There's very little flexibility built into the system; the procedures have been designed by bureaucrats to make themselves look good. It hinders the banks, and it actively prevents honest negotiation. Oh, it looks like it does, but it doesn't, not really. For instance, if you want to negotiate a temporary payment plan, you can't. It's all or nothing. Now, I know our current dire straits have a finite life (thank the stars far that!); but the bank has nothing in place. If you're a business, they do. If you're trying to negotiate on a personal level? It's all or nothing.

Their version of "help" was what I came to call "the nuclear option". (Bankruptcy.) Their systems didn't allow any deviation from that, no matter what. Well, with the help of a sympathetic person, who was willing to listen and, more importantly, understand, a solution was finally negotiated. A bit of give and take, and the solution practically presented itself. All it finally needed was an adjustment from an usurious (literally) interest rate to a more reasonable one. It saves the bank money, it saves me money and it means the bank gets paid. It might take awhile, but they will get my debt to them back at (a recalculated) 100c to the dollar, not 35c/$1 they would have got if we'd had to stick to their procedures. (Which, oddly, would have taken longer to pay, anyway!)

That was a skin of my teeth negotiation. I'm drained! I have a massive headache (I think that's from the weather, though). I got about an hour and a half of sleep, last night. What with the mouse (I think it's in the basement, but no one has shown any inclination to go find it), and the stress of knowing what I had this phone call to make, and my business plans unwinding at a ridiculously rapid rate, well, sleeping wasn't exactly on the to-do list. It was, but assumed a much lower priority than it needed to. If you catch my drift. (If you do, great. I'm not sure I do...)

Sometimes you have to sprint a marathon to stay in one place. Well, all things considered, today has become yesterday, and yesterday was walk in the park. It's just not a stroll I want to take ever again.

Carolyn Ann

(Why am I writing about this? It's not like anyone cares! Because I have to write about it.)

Country Living

Oscar brought a mouse in. I think it was Oscar; Jeremy and Copper were there, too. Anyway, whomever had it decided they needed to show it to the others. And now they've lost it.

There was a bit of fuss outside, so I opened the door to see what was going on. Oscar, Jeremy and Copper all dashed in... And then I saw them highly interested in something - and that something ran away. Jeremy grabbed it, and let it go. By this time they were over by the breakfast room fireplace. I tripped over Copper, and that freaked everyone out. It was enough time for the mouse to make a run for it.

Which it did.

Now we have two cats who are mighty pleased with themselves, and a disappointed one. And a mouse.

Carolyn Ann

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Pesto pizza

Pesto pizza, tonight. I made it (including the dough), so I'm really hoping for "edible". Tasty will be gold medal territory. :-) (It'll be done in a few minutes.)

Update: Not too bad.

That was quite a weekend. Overall, not one I'd like to revisit. Redo, perhaps, but not revisit. On the other hand, my weight is down another few pounds; I don't think it's any diet. More likely it's stress! (Diet plan: amazing levels of stress and not enough to eat. I should market it.)

C'est la vie. The important thing to remember? Yesterday was the easy day. (A special forces guy once told me that.)

Carolyn Ann

I believe I owe Tiffany an apology

In a vague fugue, I wrote a poem that reflected how I felt about myself, and not about Tiffany. I have struck it out, but I should apologize for having written it in the first place. The Black Dog (thanks to Sirena for reminding me of that label) still comes for me at times; and the other night was one.

My apologies, Tiffany.

Carolyn Ann

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Habeas corpus? Wazzat?

A court, a court that supposedly upholds The Constitution of the United States, has ruled that the constitution, common law, and supposed law that goes back to King John, doesn't apply if you're caught (as an enemy combatant) in Afghanistan.

Remind me, again, why we are there.

Habeas corpus - the right to challenge imprisonment - is, well, somewhat of an established fact. As much as the right wing might whine, the Constitution, British common law and the European courts all acknowledge that a prisoner has a right to challenge his imprisonment.

Let me hastily add, lest the buffoons over at Questioning Transphobia, or elsewhere, decide that I'm being sexist: in the wars the United States are conducting, all inductees are equal. Male pronouns it is.

I cannot, for a moment, fathom how a court managed to come this conclusion. It's a basic human right. It's a right we deny cows, for crying out loud. We slaughter cows. And now an appeals court has decided that people captured on the battlefields of Afghanistan are the same as cattle?

The denial of habeas corpus? What low have sunk to, that we deny the right of the prisoner to contend his imprisonment? What low are we at when we deny the imprisoned basic rights of challenging their incarceration?

The US might know they are fighting against them. These individuals might have been captured in battle. Do we deny them the basic rights that separates them from us? Do we pretend, for a moment and only in special circumstances, that our conduct does not matter? That we are not the same as them, as we apply their rules?

We, the entire western world - all those dithers in Germany, Holland, France and Britain - need to acknowledge that we hold ourselves to a higher standard than our infamous, infantile, despicably cruel enemy. We do not live up to their standards. We live up to ours.

Europe excepted.

Carolyn Ann

When I wear a dress

I feel so good when I wear a dress
I feel so good when I wear a dress
I don't know why, but
I feel so good when I wear a dress

I feel so good when I wear a dress
I feel so good when I wear a dress
I don't know why, but
I feel so good when I wear dress

I don't know why I'm that way
I don't know why I'm that way
I don't know why I'm that way
but I am

I am
I am
I am
I
am that way

I feel like me when I wear a dress
I feel like me when I wear a dress
I know it's hard but
I feel like me when I wear a dress

You judge me
I judge you
You judge me
I judge you
You can't judge me without others judging you
You judge me
I'll judge you

How do you feel
telling me what to do?
How do you feel
telling me what to do?
How do you feel
telling me how you feel
and you won't listen to me
when I tell you how I feel!

How do you feel
telling me how you feel?
How do you feel
telling me how you feel?
How do you sleep at night
when you tell others how to feel?

I feel me when I wear a dress
I feel me when I wear a dress
I feel me when I wear a dress
I feel I am me
When I wear a dress

Carolyn Ann

The calls continue

The dregs of my beer
the final dregs
no credit, none
no whisky for a nightcap
for a ribald memory or two

Creditors hounding my door
(you'd think they'd go home to sleep!)
and a bank manager
collecting the moths
in my wallet

he has a nice display
have you seen it?

life, I'm told, goes on
and the calls continue
get on a bike and ride

get on a bike and ride

that sentimental feeling
of the wind in your hair
the road rushing by
the tires... Oh, the sound of the tires

the calls continue

Carolyn Ann

(I'm not sure I'll ever count this one as "published")

A manikin, told

This was called "Tiffany"
But I don't like the poem, so I've struck it out.

6/14/10: On the other hand... I've re-instated this. Ms Michelle posted a photo that echoes this effort quite well. No link - if the photo stays up, it'll be obvious. (I also edited the poem; the edits aren't marked because, well, I don't want to mark them.)
===

Your lipstick does you proud
matches your red letter nails
no doubt

your dress match your eyes
and your hair
sets it

in expectation
an audience gathers
a blue dress, red lipstick
and a smile
they long for

a manikin, a deceit they define
an honest lass turned

thou are a beauty
and thy audience
expects much
more than you can deliver
and more than you might want to

a private life
turned public
a writers' quandary

the model, as herself.
but that's another story
a manikin, told

===
Carolyn Ann

untilted

Hi! I'm here.
hey, how was the drive?
not too bad
so... if you're here, am I there?
I don't know, where are you?
I'm here
I'll always be here
For You
You're sweet
I love you
Where are you?
Here, like I said
What if you're where you are, and I'm where I am
and you're not here?
I'd still be here
Waiting for you
Godot?
I hope not
Orlando?
Christ, no
Jezebel?
Fuck, I hope not
Are you waiting?
yes
With me?
If you're waiting with me
am I?
I don't know
I don't, either
Our lives are entwined
High falutin', you could say
...
Forgive me?
for what?
being an ass?
you ask that so often!
I'm often an ass.
Yes you are.
I know

Forgive me?
I love you, of course I forgive you
I wasn't sure, you know what happened to Mercutio
Yes I do
Am I Mercutio?
No. No you are not
Who am I, then?
I think you have to work that out for yourself
How can I?
I don't know, you have to work that out, as well
Perhaps the two go together?
Perhaps
Without you, I am nothing
Without me you are
and you are without me!
...
Scalded bitch, come back you desecrated fiend!
Thou hast nothing but eager glory!
A penitence trice year past, and thou
still think of it? Thy has not seen fit to forgive me
a sin I knew not a person could commit?
Thy are a bastard, heinous and deceit-filled
Thou leave this life and warrant an exit into hell!

I can but cry
I did her wrong
deceive her?
That I did
till she catch me in her yellow undergown
and I neglect to remember

I promised much; my sort always do
I promise a world, and deliver none
I promise a bode, and deliver a leaky roof

Lest I be judged by those who cannot
Let me say, merely
That life
has been kind
She married me, didn't she?

Friday, May 21, 2010

Okay... So why isn't there an affinity network for the trans community?

I was just reading about an affinity business group in the NY Times. The group, "StartOut", is dedicated to "building and supporting gay lesbian entrepreneurship". The website blurb mentions the LGBT community, but I think it's fairly clear the site is intended for gay and lesbian entrepreneurs. That's something I can applaud!

That being said, the transgender community could do with their own group. Oh, it would be easy to bitch and moan about how StartOut isn't quite as geared to transgender community as it could be, but that would be unproductive. The simple fact is: the transgender community and the gay and lesbian communities face substantially different "challenges" in the business community.

(Believe me, I know. I'm starting a business - as Carolyn - and it often strikes me that it would be a lot easier if I was gay and used my given name. But I decided that I wanted to start this business as Carolyn.)

For one thing, gays have more legal protections than the transgendered. For the most part, the transgendered are specifically excluded from legal protections. Although this doesn't matter with more enlightened courts, the danger is that a politically right-leaning judge could find that the transgendered can be discriminated against. (I'm thinking of the Bush Administration's defense of their discrimination of Dianne Schroer. The government argued that because the transgendered were not included in the relevant anti-discrimination laws, they could be discriminated against.) I'm also thinking of ENDA, and it's tortured path.

The transgendered are the new (latest?) pariahs, and they're not exactly welcomed with open arms - a grudging smile à la Disk Cheney's scowl is more like it - in the gay community, so I'm not sure if StartOut is the place for the transgendered entrepreneur. Perhaps if the TG entrepreneur community started asking, it would help. (I'll drop them an email, shortly.)

Some of the difficulties the transgendered entrepreneur faces are as simple as "what to wear", all the way to figuring out how to negotiate the labyrinthine anti-discrimination/pro-minority contract systems out there. A biggie is the whole "doing business as" issue; am I dong business as "male name", as Carolyn as the business? Or am I doing business as Carolyn, even though that name is, at legal best, a pseudonym? Transgendered business women face similar issues; they don't really have a support network, either. Transgendered business women do not, for instance, have a resource that helps them figure out how to approach HR, or a boss, about a forthcoming gender transition. It's a common enough issue, and seems to be becoming more and more common all the time, but each and every transgendered worker out there has to rediscover the same things, over and over and over. Whining about discrimination, no matter how heinous, is not exactly a helpful environment for the transgendered entrepreneur. It's certainly not empowering, and right now the transgender community needs some empowerment. (I think so, anyway.)

While there does not seem to be as many transgendered entrepreneurs, there are a few. (I'm proof of that!) I'd like somewhere I could go, to listen to speakers describe their experiences, or provide help with any of the other challenges that will, undoubtedly, occur. Right now, there isn't anywhere. I did think of starting something, but such a venture would distract from what I want to do. Now that StartOut is there, perhaps a friendly, supportive (as long as it's not that stupid "positive support") environment for the transgendered entrepreneur can be created?

Carolyn Ann

Debbie Schlussel resumes her normal service

I see Debbie Schlussel has resumed her normal idiocy.

Ms Schlussel is all in a dither because Miss USA Rima Fakih has the same name as some Hezbollah terrorists. Therefore she has to be a secret Islamic Fundamentalist. Just has to be! I couldn't help noticing that Ms Schlussel has not actually traveled to Lebanon to verify her claims. She also applies the "Obama is a Muslim" school of thinking. You know: because Barack Obama went to a madrassa, he must be Muslim. Just must be! So, if Ms Fakih is related to some terrorists, then she must be a fundamentalist Islamic terrorist, herself! See how easy it is to prove these things? Idiots.

Some people just need to generate fear. And to think: her piece on Sean Hannity was good. I know we all have off days, but this is ridiculous. What would a Muslim Fundamentalist Miss USA actually do? Give credibility to Hezbollah? The blog posts are long on innuendo, and short on facts; they associate pictures that have no connection, with each other. And there's a staggering lack of actual fact in them. Just a lot of innuendo and implication.

Come on, Ms Schlussel: you don't need to engage in such stupidity. You're brighter than that.

Carolyn Ann


Thursday, May 20, 2010

Life has become a surreal, postmodern nightmare of a pear

The stress, right now, is brutal. You might be able to tell from the surreal "quality" my writing has taken on. I have to admit that I've written a lot more than I've published. I'll write something, and it will become some postmodernist bit of nonsense. That's as opposed to its normally nonsensical state. I'll give it a quick read and wonder where that came from. So I delete it, unpublished. (My usual policy of not deleting what has been published remains. I might strike it out, but it's not deleted.)

Over the next couple of weeks, our income will be about a fifth of what it needs to be. The situation will get better in about 6 weeks. Knowing there's a finite time to it all makes it much easier to endure; I'm just hoping that light at the end of the proverbial tunnel isn't a train! It looks a bit too much like one, right now.

We didn't see this coming; if we had, we'd have made plans. Instead it landed on us like a pile of bricks. Dropped from a suitably distressing height. A single late check from a client was the catalyst. If it had been "late" we'd have been okay. But it wasn't. It was very late. The client simply doesn't like paperwork, so she freely admits to putting it off. Fine for her - she has a salary, benefits (including decent health insurance). Her consultants and freelancers don't. We don't.

(Okay, that sort of contradicted itself; it's not as if I'm about to publish our financials on the Internet.)

With nowhere else to turn, I actually consulted a financial adviser. I found him by referral; I will not be using his services. While he was quite well recommended, I discovered that he just doesn't listen: I told him we owed the IRS. His next question? Did we get a refund on our taxes? Hell-Ooo? Anyone home? I thanked him for his time and hung up.

In the meantime, I'm working on my business idea; it's very exciting. Well, I'm excited about it! :-) I have no idea if it will be successful - I'm making every effort to try and ensure it is! I was once at a small crafts show, displaying my wares (I think I made a few sales, that day), and a chap asked me about starting my business. He wanted to start one, but before he did so, he wanted to know how he could guarantee success. If memory serves, his exact question was "how did you know you'd be successful?" The chap in the next booth answered "you don't". You just have to try. Starting a business is a risk. It's a financial risk, and it's a personal risk. If you're doing it right, you invest so much of yourself into the business that if it fails, it's personal.

Someone once told me the story of a chap who'd started a small store. He treated it as a job; he turned up for work, and left at the appointed closing time. Apparently his father, who'd supplied the capital, was livid. When the business (quickly) folded, the father apparently got so angry he told him off, in public. As if his son was still a small child. You simply can't treat your business as a job; it has to be your life. (I have no idea if this story is apocryphal or not.)

This "little project" of mine is all-consuming. Having some financial woes at the same time is not exactly helpful!

So it's going to be a bit challenging, to use a modern megrim, over the next few weeks. A mix of intense negotiation with people who aren't interested; they sound sympathetic. Indeed, many of them are in the same boat; they've told me so! One chap revealed he was a laid off schoolteacher; another told me what he did. I'm looking into it. I want to be sure it won't make a bad situation worse before I try it.

All in all, life has taken on a very surreal quality. Perhaps I should just publish the next arcane post or two; I'll call it postmodern blogging and I'll be lauded as a visionary. Yeah, well. I can still fantasize. Not about that; "postmodern blogging" would be a nightmare, not a fantasy! Anyway, I'm going back to getting my business up and running. I just needed to write about our pear-shaped life. I can't figure out if it's truly surrealist, merely postmodern or a combined surreal, postmodernist nightmare of a pear. I'm leaning toward the last one.

Carolyn Ann

Composition

What is composition? I know a poorly constructed photograph when I see it; I know a poorly constructed sentence, too. (That one, for instance.) But what is composition?

I once mentioned to a potentially great Flickr lass that her photos needed a keener eye to their composition. No picture frame or plant sticking out of her head, for instance. It's a common problem with snapshot-style photographs; the concentration is on the subject, and no one actually sees that sign post, or the stalk of that "plant that adds a bit of drama" as it sprouts from the unfortunate noggin.

Composition can encompass things like angles that point in disparate directions. Sometimes those disparate angles can help us understand the picture; they help us distinguish what is important, and what is not. Sort of like a movie that has a subplot; the diversions help us understand the whole thing. (I'll assume the movie is well-written.) More often, disparate angles are exactly that - disparate. They fight each other.

In hospital, I was invited to join in a small art class. For that class we had to draw a circle (plates were provided), and then draw and paint our image inside that circle. It suited me, perfectly. I was going to draw the view from my bed - but every horizontal line would have a different vanishing point. Those points I figured out mathematically. (It took a few moments; I didn't have a calculator. No, I'm not gifted with numbers, but I do "see" spatial relationships.) Each point varied by "e", the natural logarithm. I never did finish that picture. I was called to answer questions by the local Gestapo representative Social Worker. (Hat tip to Renée for the linguistic technique! :-) ) I was well ahead of her. More when I feel like it.

I tried to finish that picture, a few years later. I still have it, in my mind. It will never be finished; or if it is, I'm back there, or in somewhere similar. (Never happen. Never.)

When I look at a network diagram, I can immediately pick up if it's any good. I know a good network when I see it. I don't need negative space to help me pick out the salient points. I look at a good network as a piece of art - if it's good, I want to hang its diagram on my wall. If it's bad, I want to ask "Why?"

Once upon a time I had to figure out a network. The designer was a highly paid, quite influential, consultant. He decreed that all network resources should be equally spaced from the every resource. ie, Every server had to be an equal number of hops from every desktop.

How communist. How stupid.

His dream machine didn't take into account the speed of light, nor the speed of a signal through a fiber-optic cable. My refutation did; it was simple: I merely stated that his network would fail because the odd number of "master" nodes had a resonant frequency that equalled a "stalled network". That is, a network that would oscillate with itself trying to figure out who was the master.

Look up the FDDI specification and see if you can figure out, without mathematics, the problem. A clue: it's at 7 nodes. In fact, it turns up at all prime numbered nodes, above 7. (Prove it? Who am I? If you want mathematical proof, try and interest Zoe Brain; she's far cleverer than I!) Doubt it? It's fairly simple: the time it takes a system to figure out who's the master, the next round of figuring out who's the master has begun. All you need to know is the average speed of light through a fiber, and a guess at how quickly the router can answer.

I still cringe at the proof.

Oh, the network well enough. It even stayed up. But what I came to call the "harmonics" - the secondary signs - were out of whack. And than an apprentice electrician cut the cable. He was supposed to. No one but one or two people knew what they cable contained: the primary and backup networks. Neat, yeah?

(I later came across the same oblivion when someone mirrored a 2GB disk: he dissected it in half, and made one half mirror the other half. Oh yeah, that's a mirrored disk.)

I remember when the trading network went down. I had questioned the wisdom of putting " "those" servers in a different building to the trading floors they served. But it all server the desire to minimize the "hop" count. That buzzword was all the rage among the clueless.

Where does art come into this? You know, I've spent a hell a long time trying to figure that out. I know that when I was given the task of designing an investment bank's international network, the first place I went was MOMA. If memory serves, it often doesn't, I even took a day off. I studied paintings, sculptures how light changed what we see. It was quite a wonderful time.

I designed a network that was supposed to last 18 months. It was still in place 5 years later. It was well overdue for replacement. It was a poor successor who decreed that it should last longer than it was designed to. (Opinionated? Me? Funny you should ask... :-) ) Oh, I'm sure if you ask certain individuals my design was destined for the scrap heap before I put pen to paper. It was a pen, too. Visio didn't exist. Beside which, I used Visio to formalize my pen and paper musings.

We were sat on a red eye from California; I think from LA, but it could have been SFO. At the time, I think I took the flight to the Golden State more often than I took the cross-town bus. The chap next to me was a movie producer; who, I have no idea. I didn't ask his name. He spent a the first few hours of the flight figuring out his organization for a movie he was working on. He had some fancy Windows program to do it with. I had another international network - 15 locations, 9 countries - to design, based on tests I'd (designed and) conducted, and meetings held. I had a sophisticated, for its time, laptop. I also had a tablet of paper and a decent pen. (I'd bought it from a very nice chap in the airport; for some reason, I recall the purchase, but not the airport.) LA? Nooo... I don't think it was LA. Orange County? Perhaps. It's not important. Where was I? Oh yes. He used an expensive program to design an org chart. I used a pen and paper to design an international network.

I still think about that moment.

My early career was spent actually handling wires. And the voltages they can carry. I have perfect color vision, so I was given the task of learning how to join subtly colored wires together. Funny story: I knew a chap who was color blind; he figured it all out from where the wire was in its cable. Then they changed the color scheme, and how the wires were twisted together in the cable. Apparently it took "them" a long time to figure out his vision problems. (Is it, in contemporary vernacular and standards, to re-iterate this story? Is it "ablist" in some dismal, mediocre way to remember that chap with affection, and still laugh at his plight? If it is, sod ya. Go buy a sense of humor, because it's the only way you'll get one.)

Ah fuck it. I'm going to go all post-modern, and not actually define a conclusion. I haven't finished designing networks. I still know what a good network design is. I feel it's not the crap so many produce.

Want to know what a good network is? Go to a good museum with lots of modern art. Figure out what the artist is asking. And then go figure out your network. If the questions don't align with the answer - go do some more work.

Good network design does not rely on protocols. That's like a poet relying device, a painter relying a specific light or a fool relying on the right answer to magically appear. It never happens, and when it does - you know it. Network design is one of the new crafts.

Carolyn Ann

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Time keeps on marching, as that infernal singer sang

Oy. Where does the time go?

Dealing with our dismaying parlous finances on the one hand, and trying to get something going for my forthcoming business venture is quite another. Having to do both at the same time is quite, well, time-consuming.

There's not a lot to say, basically. So I won't say anything. :-\

Carolyn Ann

Prattling politicals and steering wheels

It seems so dreary, these days. All this to-ing and fro-ing, he-said, she-said, they said she said, she said she didn't, and so on. Who cares what was actually said? Is the woman fit for the job, or should it be passed to some reliable lackey for a group that can't get its American history right? Never mind its political consistency. Self-important blow-hards, if you ask me.

The trouble with politics is not the politicians - it's the rank amateurs who fancy themselves as competent; prattling a few words that might pass muster in an open field on a windy day is not quite the same as having a political view worth noting. One or two of these jabberers have mastered the art of appearing to make sense in a studio with lights, cameras and even a few unfortunate sound engineers. Unfortunate for us, that is. I'm sure they're paid a measly stipend that reflects their boss's worth to humanity.

What is so striking is that the difference between that traditional battleground of political colloquy's: the left and the right. It's nigh on impossible to tell them apart, these days. The left is annoyed with their lot because they're not doing all they said they would. The right is annoyed with their lot because they are doing what they said they would, but they're doing it sans sufficient zeal. Am I the only the one to notice that spoiled brats are leading us by the nosepiece? They want their retributions now! Absolutely now.

These brats have always existed, of course. They used to be called extremists, but that seems to be reserved for the true lunatic. What is quietly desperate is the way these lunatics have seized control of the metaphorical bus. And they have no idea what the steering wheel is for.

Carolyn Ann

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Cranky cats

It's teeming, with no end in sight. And I have a house full of cats, all but one of whom want to go out. "It's raining! What's it like at the other door? ... ... It's raining there, too!"

I told the Mrs that it was "Take (all) your kitten(s) to work day", but she didn't believe me. And left them all at home. There's nothing quite like a house full of cranky cats.

Carolyn Ann

Monday, May 17, 2010

They can't win!

The Euro gets hammered by the market for not responding to the Greek crisis. So a deal is struck. A €750B deal. The deal is a little shady on some important points, but it's still reasonable. The original TARP bill was worse, and the markets still liked it. So now the markets are hammering the Euro because the deal might strain European economies.

Would it have been better if the previous Greek government hadn't lied? Sure. It was fine to punish Europe for introducing unnecessary uncertainty. But to punish them because they actually acted? Angela Merkel, the German chancellor, must be feeling that she's damned if she doesn't, and damned if she does.

Oh the markets can be fickle.

Carolyn Ann

So... Why?

Glenn Beck is a buffoon. He never really thinks about anything, and his point of view has to support the basic idea that he and anyone like him is a victim. He can't be positive, lest it destroy his reputation for cynicism and his fervent desire to be that victim.

He is influential within his fan-club. He tries to reframe the conversation to prove his point. Inconvenient facts and anecdotes are not within his purview. Indeed, if they ever have the misfortune to wander into his limited attention span, he's quick to disparage them. Not with facts - that takes thought, research and effort. Why bother with those when you have emotion, feelings, innuendo and idiocy?

Refuting him is so easy, it's almost boring. Pointing out the holes in his arguments is such a trivial affair, I'm sure it's taught in kindergarten. The subjects he roams over are disparate, disconnected and usually irrelevant.

Ms Harney has a more limited range of topics.

Lisa Harney isn't that important.

Carolyn Ann

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Hypocrisy lives...

According to this post, Lisa harney hates "trans" as an adjective. I do, too. But for a different reason. Ms Harney, while she's perfectly willing to use "cisgender", and uses it at every possible occasion, is annoyed when a transperson's history becomes gossip-worthy.

On the other hand:
I also think that as long as we can talk about non-binary and non-transitioning people, that it’s okay to have words for binary and transitioning people as well.
Hmm.

Ms Harney starts out by arguing that "MTF" and "FTM" reassert someone's original gender. I'd agree that they provide a distinctive road map, but I'm not sure I can agree with her supposition. She hears "MALE to female"; I hear "em-to-eff". I hear that someone decided to become as physically close as they could to being a woman. Good for them. Here's the problem: in denying that someone was biologically another sex, you deny their history. And you deny the history of others. Their parents, for example. Their spouse, their kids. Their friends.

Life does not begin with a sex change. It might seem like it does, but to some, it can be an unwanted end to a friendship, a love, a shared life. Ms Harney is at least consistent in her wish to deny individual histories. She might want to deny her history, but I'll be damned if she's going to use language to deny mine.

And that's the fundamental problem Ms Harney has with gender history: if it doesn't fit with her desires, her wishes, it's wrong. She never stops to think about what an individuals' history actually means. But she's perfectly happy to impose her interpretation of your history upon you. If you have the misfortune, in her eyes, of being born "cisgendered", that abomination of language and philosophical concept, she'll always make time to condemn you. She's eager to impose views, beliefs and phobias upon you. But transgendered? Oh no - those individuals are pure of heart and motive. Yeah, right. People are people.

Like I said, hypocrisy lives. Why am I not surprised?

Carolyn Ann

Edit: Changed the end. I didn't like the original.

Little things

The last two years have seen me on multi-week trips at this time of year. Heck, it often seems that I travel so often that it seems I spend more time in a tent than in our bed! I haven't done as much traveling, this year - and I miss it.

But as I get older, it seems that the little things in life count for so much more. A kitten finding pleasure in wandering under my skirt, a motorcycle and a corner. Simply wearing a pretty skirt, or riding a good motorbike. Seeing the flowers bloom, or whittling a small item for the Mrs. The big things - grand accomplishments, don't seem to be quite as important.

And yet they assume an outsized importance.

If I'm looking back at my accomplishments of years gone by - it basically means I'm not accomplishing anything, right now. As I once told a chap I hired: your past accomplishments mean nothing. I meant in his new firm; I could have added that working sorta-hard for a couple of years and expecting that to carry for the next ten was not a winning proposition, either.

I'm trying to get this project finished; it's not exactly killing me, but it's giving it a damn good go. I lay awake, sweating the details, wondering about strategy, and the finances. How am I going to pay the bills when they come due? Is this the right way to do that? Could this be done better?

For years my wife said I was pretty much a pessimist. Recently, this annoyed me, and I had to ask her: does a pessimist plan a multi-week, many thousand mile motorcycle trip (with definite dates) when he doesn't even have a working motorcycle? Or isn't exactly sure where half his tent is? I'm not a pessimist - I'm the worst kind of optimist. :-) Most entrepreneurs are.

It's the same with my business "plans". I keep reading about what I need to do to succeed. I have decided I need to ignore that advice. I do need to embrace the idea that I don't need what was needed even 10, 5, years ago. The cost of entry is so much lower; the risks, fortunately, aren't. As any small business owner should be able to tell you: failure is not the financial cost. It's the emotional cost. What is success? The billion dollar idea? Hardly. When I did woodwork, success was a happy customer. The next job was not achieved on the merits of what I had done, it was gained by my promise versus my delivery.

One thing I learned, long ago, was that the little things count more than you know.

I remember spending a long time teaching an old lass how to use her new phone. My boss, being a bastard, checked up on me. And he berated me for not teaching her how to use her new phone. When I told him I had, and asked how much difficulty he'd had - he backed off. He forgot, despite being an ex-copper, to look at the details. He forgot the little things. Her memory, where she was, how she offered tea, poured it and then forgot about it. How she forgot what the telephone was in the middle of teaching her how to dial it. So she could summon her daughter. Pretty major things, but in the average phone installers life, pretty small stuff. We weren't trained to be physicians or caregivers!

I remember her. And I think of her. She's long gone, by now. But I remember paying attention to the small things in her life. I made sure the phone was set for her height (my boss berated me for putting it too low). I made sure it was easily heard. I made sure, when I left, that she knew how to use the phone. We made a call to her daughter, and I made sure she knew where the number was written down. She forgot the lot.

What a load of sentimental clap-trap.

Little things. They make a difference.

Carolyn Ann

Hamchop likes my skirt...

I was standing in the kitchen, chatting to the Mrs when Hamchop wandered in. She squeaked a bit, telling us something, and then she walked under my skirt. She squeaked a little more. And walked back under my skirt. She kept this up for about 5 minutes (!) before deciding that she wanted to go out. She's so cute! :-)

(There must be something appealing about that skirt. Jeremy and Checkers did the same thing!)

Carolyn Ann

Effort to allow those on terror-watchlist to buy guns gains unexpected support

Joining Republican and NRA efforts to ensure that terror suspects could continue to buy guns, and carry them into airports, received some unexpected support from international and domestic groups this morning. Groups like The Taliban, al-Qaida, the Spanish terror group ETA, and the Irish Real IRA, all voiced their support for the effort in a jointly issued communique. Domestic white supremacist groups also voiced their support. "How can we spread terror if we're not allowed to buy guns?" one skinhead asked. Another noted that their stylist objected because menacingly posing with toy guns is not the same: "he said it looks fait to pose with toy guns, and quite frankly, we agree with him" the man said.

Terror groups from all over the world joined in praising the NRA's efforts. "How can we spread terror if we're not allowed to buy guns and use them in American airports?" asked one terrorist. Another noted "getting out of the country on an airplane is the quickest escape possible; so it's would be really convenient if we could spread fear and kill some infidels in the same place as our escape route!" Another noted "we've got a lot of money invested in a Libyan training camp. We teach our students how to shoot well-meaning people who might be carrying guns in airports. It helps that they're not used to the adrenalin rush, and it makes them easier targets, too. But if Congress passes a law saying that people on the American terrorist watchlist cant buy guns, all that money and effort in setting up the secret training camp will be wasted!" Another man said "I've been to a secret terrorist training camp in Pakistan where I learned to use guns against anyone and everyone! I'm on terrorist watch-lists in half a dozen countries. All that training, and the efforts the authorities made putting me onto those lists, will be wasted if I can't buy guns!"

The NRA didn't seem to be keen on accepting this support; they referred all enquiries to Sarah Palin: "She knows a lot about terrorists, having talked mindlessly for hours about someone Candidate Obama knew in passing." Sarah Palin agreed to talk to the press as long questions were submitted in advance and no members of the press were present when she answered them.

Reporting to you live, but in irrational fear of airports and potential terrorists carrying lots of guns,
Carolyn Ann

Feeling pretty (& Mexican) :-)

So we're about to have a quick snack of Mexican pastries (purchased at a Mexican bakery in Kennet Sq, Pennsylvania, accompanied by some Cafe Americano.
My skirt and t-shirt are from Mexico; the skirt is a very comfortable long, loose cotton in a pretty sea-green. The handmade, white linen, t-shirt has a cute series of little figures, in bright yellows, pinks, turquoises, purples and so on, embroidered in a grid across the bust. It's the first time in a long time that I've been able to wear the t-shirt! :-)

I'd better stay away from Arizona.

Carolyn Ann

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Secrets of the Secret Service...

So I watched a program called "The Secrets of the Secret Service". It was full of information I either knew, or could have guessed.

Carolyn Ann

Friday, May 14, 2010

The arrogance of Facebook

Facebook is being astonishingly arrogant, lately. They make changes to their privacy standards by decree, and then ignore everyone when they complain. They have a meeting to discuss their privacy changes, but make it private and closed.

They seem to think they own the data you have given them.

A New York based alternative, Diaspora*, has attracted significant, open, funding because they promise an alternative to Facebook. Their stated goal is something that's not centralized like Facebook. They also promise to have privacy systems that you control - not them, or Facebook. That alone is worth noting.

Unfortunately, until a viable alternative comes along, and network affects make it a reasonable choice, Mark Zuckerberg is not going to pay attention to how he's upsetting and annoying people. He should. Facebook is big enough to be the target of legislation; social networks are becoming important enough within the economy that national legislators will start paying attention. It'll be fine line the politicians will have to find - but if Facebook is relying on that line being obscure, they'll be surprised. (I think they are relying on the difficult nature of that line.) If there's public concern, Europe will be first in line to legislate social network privacy. (Congress, likely as not, won't be seen in this discussion until it's moot.)

Mr Zuckerberg likes to say everything is social. He's wrong. Heck - his understanding of privacy is hypocritical; what he does is private, what you do is broadcast to the world. He doesn't understand his own product, in other words. He mistakes his customers for his product, as Valeria notes.

Facebook is rapidly becoming the latest Microsoft; all hubris and "we know what's best". (Apple is vying, hard, for that honorific, as well.) I get the feeling that Facebook considers itself a technology company, not a social system. Sure, they have to make money - but they shouldn't be considering their customers as their product. They're likely to find that people do care about that.

Carolyn Ann

14,908

Holy mackerel! My LRG Hayabusa picture has been viewed 14,908 times, so far. Goodness gracious me.

That is one popular picture.

(On the other hand, the pictures of me have been viewed about twice. I think that was the Mrs looking to see which pictures I actually uploaded.) :-)

Carolyn Ann

My take on the British elections

Jess wrote a very interesting post about the recent elections in Britain. I added a comment, which I thought I'd share here. What's with me being the reticent sort, and all. As you well know. :-)

(Go read Jessica's post first, please. :-) )

So here it is:

Interesting post, Jess. :-)

I'm definitely tribal; always have been, likely always will be. My political views were, to a large extent, shaped by Margaret Thatcher - a name that still has me spitting nails.

I don't think the political parties have the same goals. If all they differed on was the implementation, they'd all be centrist. So while Labour has been equivocating on that, the Tories rushed to prove they were, while not actually approaching the political center.

(Take gay marriage, for instance. The Tories are opposed to it; I doubt they even like the bastardized equivalency of "civil unions".)

Individuals, working on specific social issues, might have some accord, but the underlying philosophies between Labour and Conservative are radically different. (If anyone can point out the core principles of the Lib-Dems, it would be appreciated.)

David Cameron will start cutting without thought. He has to, simply to satisfy his core constituency. Oh, he'll say they've thought about this or that - if a politician can't justify stupidity, they shouldn't be in the job. He will go after the low-hanging fruit. He's got to do that because the Lib-Dems need to be kept somewhat happy. (Maybe if he made a Lib-Dem Chancellor?)

The Tories are, as a party, congenitally opposed to Europe. The reasons are spurious, and might have made sense in 1659, but in 2010 they're not even insulting: they're just not worth considering. How that's going to get reconciled with the Lib-Dem desire for more European integration will "interesting".

The other issue is the increasingly American-style conservatism I detect at the edges of the Conservative party. There's an increase in Christian Fundamentalism, along with its restrictive political views. The far right, in the shape of the BNP, is more politically active and successful than at any time in its history. There seems to be a growing fondness for simplistic explanations. And so on.

All of this spells trouble for Mr Cameron. He's not as adroit as Tony Blair. That means he will find himself on a little island, surrounded by right wing sharks. At that point it will be obvious that a new election is needed. I give it less than a year.

Carolyn Ann

Oiling the door

That's either a neat title, or an interesting metaphor. :-)

Before things can happen there has to be a will to make something happen. Someone has to want some outcome. Whether the outcome is what they want or not is a different question. But for something to happen, someone, a singular someone, has to want something to occur.

If the head of an investment bank wants to achieve CEO of the entire bank - he or she has to want the best damned infrastructure they can afford. (They can afford a lot; money is cheap. That's an important point to remember: money is cheap.) That person has to want good bankers working for them; they have to know how to dish out the credit for good ideas. Ambition isn't enough. Despite what we're told, you can't be anything you want to be. There has to be the drive, and it has to be coupled with talent. I could set my sight on a cabinet post. At this stage of life, it's not likely to happen. If I wanted to, I could spend some years really working my ass off to get within breathing distance - but there are so many factors at play, factors I have no control over, that this is the best I could expect.

I could set up a candy store. And swear I'd be the best candy merchant in miles. (I wouldn't be the only candy merchant within miles, however.) I would have to know my customers, and my product - and, as a direct consequence, my vendors and my financiers.

What does it mean to be the best, anyway?

The most technically competent? The best at getting things done? The person that swoops in and saves the day? Personally, I hate that sort. I spent a long time ensuring I never hired them. They let things fail, swooping in to save whatever it is, because the only thing they know is failure. I spent an awful amount of time trying to be the best manager. I flunked - big time. Because I didn't have the support I needed, and because I mistook what being a manager was.

I had a boss who was as elliptic as an orbit, but a hell of a lot of less concise; he was also unfathomably vindictive. Oh the times I could have reported him for sexual abuse outnumber the times when he was even theoretically decent. I couldn't look to him to tell me how to achieve my goals.

My goals were to provide the best damn network I could. I knew it involved people, architecture and technology. In that order. I owed that to the people who paid my wages: the analysts, who had their own ambitions and dreams of stardom. The bankers who wanted to make a mint and move on, Ferrari and Porsche supercars providing the transport to that moving on.

It takes a visceral, almost feral ambition to succeed on Wall St. Some might say I didn't; I'll merely note I changed my career from systems architect/engineer to woodworker because I was presented with a choice. I really did want something different. I haven't lost that feral ambition.

No siree, I sure as hell haven't.

Carolyn Ann

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Alarming cats

Jeezy peeps. I have the "dropsies", today.

This morning, I dropped about half a pound of freshly ground coffee on the kitchen floor. I've been dropping my glasses left, right and center. And I just fed the cats...

Spot is always a little nervous at dinner time; she's a little uncertain about that big guy, Jeremy. He's handsome, but he does use his size to intimidate others when his bowl is finished. And then there's his Mommy, Bongo. She's not very big, but her usual modus operandi is to instill the fear of god, aka herself, into any new cats. Spot is just about terrified of her. So she's always a little jumpy at dinner time; I usually put her food on the stairs, away from everyone else. But she was in the kitchen, so I figured she could eat by her sister, Hamchop (aka Hamlet; gender-specific names are not very common around here...) I dropped her bowl, right in front of her. The poor thing took off like a black and white rocket!

My guess is she's under the bed and won't come out until the Mrs gets home. I feel awful. :-(

(On the other hand, I don't need to clean up the mess. The feline vacuum cleaners started working immediately... A quick wash in a few minutes and it'll be like nothing happened. Apart from Spot's nerves needing some TLC.)

Carolyn Ann

Lewis Black

Normally, I'm not much of a fan of Lewis Black's tirades on Jon Stewart's Daily Show. They strike me as vulgarity-laden derivatives of Andy Rooney's. Except for last night.

Mr Black laid into Glenn Beck like a prize fighter. Mr Black's tirade was from the heart; you could tell he was genuinely angry at Glenn Beck. Angry, and deeply offended by Mr Beck's fondness for trivial Hitler, Third Reich and Weimar Germany comparisons. Mr Black's polemic was astounding in its passion, articulation and venom.

Carolyn Ann

Speaking of inspiring...

I see Zoe Brain has had a paper accepted for an artificial life conference. Congratulations, Zoe. :-)

Carolyn Ann

Pick yourself up

...And start all over, again! :-)

John Corzine, erstwhile Governor of New Jersey and prior to that, head of Goldman Sachs and a United States Senator, is starting over. At age 63. Good for him!

In the article, written by Nelson D. Schwartz, there's the implication that Mr Corzine has to start at the bottom of the Wall St pile. He doesn't - I think he's simply chosen to do so. It wouldn't be like him to re-enter Wall St anywhere else. Perhaps as CEO of Citibank, but I think Tim Geithner has a lock on that job - when he wants it. (I hope that's not for awhile. He's doing too good a job at the Treasury.)

Based on what Mr Corzine says in the interview, I can't help but think that Mr Schwartz is a little disingenuous. He seems to be bringing forth a false sense of superiority, perhaps to make the reader feel better: "Hah! Look at this Wall St Big-Wig! He has to restart at the bottom!" A false sense of superiority, indeed. People like Mr Corzine enjoy the chase; in more primitive times (the Bush Years, perhaps?), they'd be the most dangerous hunters. Always out in front, making that kill no one else would.

Plus, he gets to do something he likes: build a firm. If I were a Wall St head honcho, I'd be looking at Mr Corzine's operation with concern. Me? I just wish he were still Governor of New Jersey.

Here's wishing him luck, and I'll hold him up as a lesson for all. No matter what, you can pick yourself up and plow on.

Carolyn Ann

Sorting out Flickr

I really have to sort out my Flickr photos. They're all over the place! A picture of Big Fluffy Daddy (don't ask; he's a big, fluffy cat) is in a set about Sculpture Gardens. And the Delaware Art Museum. But not cats. Go figure.

Blazin247 put my LRG Hayabusa photo into his gallery of good looking bikes. That gallery is definitely bike porn. :-) Wow!

Sorting out my Flickr feed is a job for another day. Their tools are best described as "adequate"; and I can't seem to find any desktop-based tools to help me.

Carolyn Ann


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

David resides at the bottom of a very tall cliff

Cameron.

Shees. I wish I allowed myself to vote. Then I could at least legitimately complain. As it is, I don't live in England (or Scotland), and I won't vote in a place I don't live. Even though the Labour Party decreed I had that right. As a life-long Labour Party member: I disagree. Why should I get a say in British elections if I don't live there?

I'm not a citizen of the United States, either. So I can't vote here.

Fuck it.

I'm going to bed. Maybe it's a deranged nightmare and David Cameron is really at the bottom of a cliff, pleading for his position. Oh wait... That's exactly where he is.

Carolyn Ann

Margaret in drag

All of sudden I feel really depressed.

The land of my birth has given quarter to another Thatcherite. Labour is guilty of much hubris, and it should penalized. But to provide electoral cover to another Margaret? David Cameron is nothing if not a Margaret in drag.

He has to mollify the Lib-Dems, but he's promised a meaningless post to Nick, and a few cabinet spots to Lib-Dems. Once he's PM, what do you think he'll do? Pay attention to his pre-10 Downing St promises? That would be a first. This man is a deceit from the get go. If he tells you the sky is blue - go outside and check. Make sure you're guaranteed re-entry before you check.

I have never understood why anyone would like Thatcher - she deserves no pronoun (which should piss off the Lisa Harney, but if I had to wager, it won't because she doesn't understand what I'm mad about) - but people do. Once upon a time a waitress almost called the cops to sort out a fracas between Bob and I; I paid for the next round. Or did Bob? I forget. He started extolling the virtues of the worst British PM ever. I hate that bitch with ever fiber of my being. I can't tell you how much I hate her.

(And yet, when I was presented with some evidence of a bombing against her, I not only willingly gave it - I provided my name. No hiding behind anonymity for me! True story, if you're interested.)

I

I am lost for words.

Britain is once again given to the forces of laissez-faire. Of decorum, of elite schools and of chance of birth.

Britain enters an age the Greeks will look at, wistfully.

Carolyn Ann

A thoroughly British disaster

Alex Massie says, in the final sentence of his erudite piece in the NY Times, "David Cameron knows that after 13 years in the wilderness, the Conservatives are back."

Yeah. He also supposes the coalition will last until 2015. Two thousand and fifteen. Wow. That's, like, 5, five, years away. With a coalition that is not at war with a commonly-agreed enemy, an electorate that is at odds with the voting, a fiscal situation that calls for Greek-like austerity and a deteriorating situation in the South Atlantic.

Can anyone recall Margaret?

Known on Wanted Posters as "Margaret the Liar". She of "no army were involved", and yet a miner saw his brother, who was in the army, in a police uniform, attacking them.

That's David Cameron. Except he's more polite.

Give it a few months.

We'll see what the wall around the NHS means. It needs breaching, that's a given - but does it need demolishing?

Pensions. Near and dear to those of us with retired parents. We'll be dipping into our income to ensure (insure?) promises made in the 1960's.

Unemployment? What's that?

Youth unemployment? Those kids should get a job.

And so on and so forth.

C'est la vie.

Carolyn Ann

It's over... For now

So Britain has its first Conservative government in 13 years. ... Okay. It has its second coalition government in ages.

Young Nick is Deputy Prime Minister - a post that's reminiscent of the American Vice President pre-Dick Cheney. Up to 5 Liberal-Democrats will get senior cabinet posts. And despite rumors and even articles proclaiming otherwise, the Tooth Fairy is alive and well and living in Whitehall.

Cue Mr Depp...

With a little less eyeshadow, please. :-)

Britain has a government, again. Whoopdedoo.

Odd as it may seem, I long for the days of Mr Blair. He, at least, could ignite passions. Mrs Thatcher could too, but they usually included bonfires where she was burned in lusty effigy. Oh for those days! :-) When Tony inhabited 1o Downing St, the Conservatives couldn't muster the intellectual or moral courage to lob political grenades at the PM. These days it seems that British politics is in danger of going to the American model: the lowest common-ist denomimator possible. The President's birth certificate? Check that as a question. The role of the Fed? Check that as a question to be asked and the answer to be rushed over. Lower taxes while piling on the entitlements? Where do you think you are? California? Oh, sure. How much did you want? Not a problem. Your neighbors' kids are paying. You remember them? The neighbors you didn't like? Yeah, them. :-)

Britain has a government. I'm not sure it's going to last very long. (I'll give it 3 minutes for the sniping, and 3 months to live.) I'm not entirely sure where the British voter comes in. Perhaps the same place as the American voter in 2000? That is: who?

Hurrah for democracy. I guess.

Carolyn Ann

Gordon Brown - quits

How long did that take? He should have quit before the election. Someone, anyone, should have been positioning themselves for a palace coup. It says a lot about the current Labour Party that there isn't anyone waiting in the wings.

I wonder if they can spell "complacency"?

Still, I see the Tories are edging Labour out. I wonder what they're promising Young Nick? Actually, I think Britain should be very wary of what is going on behind those closed doors.

Carolyn Ann

Continuing that thought

I go to the bookstore specifically to get Racecar Engineering. In contrast, I go to the magazine section of the library to get slightly out of date copies of some of the magazines I used to subscribe to. From that you can infer that I will spend $10 to $11 per month on one magazine and yet won't spend $10 to $25 on a subscription for other magazines. That's because Racecar Engineering gives me something I can't get elsewhere.

Even in my perilous financial condition, I maintain a subscription to The Economist and Foreign Affairs. If I had to buy either of those, I probably wouldn't. I don't know the newsstand price of the Economist, but anything over a couple of dollars would have to be justified. Considering the frequency of Foreign Affairs, I might buy that one. But I keep the subscriptions going; it's cheaper for The Economist, and Foreign Affairs is a magazine I love to read. If I had an iPad, and Foreign Affairs was fully available online, I'd drop the magazine, and go with the website - even if there was a (smaller) cost.

If I had an iPad, T-Central would not be a home page (you have to read the next post in the list in order to make sense of that comment. Sorry). I probably wouldn't read T-Central at all. Mostly because it doesn't work well in Safari; there's something about the widgets that does for Safari. Such is the fickleness of the blog reader! I'll install a browser to read your blog, or see your list. But if you blow up my browser, you've lost a (fairly vocal) reader.

All of this just goes to show how arbitrary, and difficult, the barriers are. For a blog writer, it's easy to read the advice "build your readership"; doing it is quite another thing altogether! Getting, and holding, a readers' attention is quite an impressive feat.

I really do have to get on with my deck demolition.

Carolyn Ann

An idle moment, spent thinking about T-Central

So, in an idle moment, I thought a little about T-Central. It's a curious list; there's no apparent criteria for a blog appearing on the list. It seems that the principle criteria is "have an overtly transgender blog". So the range of blogs goes from the political buffoonery of Questioning Transphobia to the "let me tell you, in graphic detail, about my operation". There are more than a few blogs where the bloggers wrestle with the supposed issues of being feminine. I can't say I've ever noticed many general blogs on it. Mind you, within the transgender blogosphere, I can't say I've ever noticed many general blogs at all. Perhaps, to be on the list, or be counted as a transgendered blogger, your life has to revolve around gender?

To be honest, I don't know of any other blog that would have me downloading a browser, specifically to read it. If I had to download a specific browser to read the blogs on my bloglist, especially the "recommended" ones, I'd do so. (They're recommended for a reason. Well, the last one, "My Flickr" because it's a vanity. :-) So sue me.) If T-Central was anything but a hobby, the owners would kill for such readers! Can you imagine how the Huffington Post would react? They'd be overjoyed that someone liked their product enough that they took direct actions. It's the Internet, it's not like going to the newsstand or WH Smiths for your favorite magazine - if something requires effort to accomplish, it's an amazing vote of confidence! (That's why it's so important for sites to be easy to use: barriers are so much lower, and simultaneously so much higher, on the Internet.) If the NY Times could point to some people who, like me, have that site as a home page, it's money in the bank. "We have 'x' number of people who have our site as their home page". It's an advertising rate guarantee!

I wonder how many people actually have T-Central as a home page?

As it is, The Huffington Post can only claim that I look at their website at some point in my morning routine. Which is pretty good in itself! They can surmise that I won't miss many mornings; they can sell that fact to advertisers. Likewise, The Guardian. MacWorld can assume I'll visit their site a few times a week. MacLife, a few times a month. And so on. Because of the format of my "recommended" list, I tend to visit those sites often. Some, like Lynn's YATGB, I know are updated on Friday evening, UK time. (I look forward to reading Lynn's blog.) But I still drop by, because Lynn has a neat blogroll.

Basically, if you're at all interested in your readers, or with increasing the number of readers, you need to think about things like browsing habits. If you're someone's home page, it's like getting an award. Not one of those stupid, meaningless Internet awards, but a real one. It means someone likes your work. (I like reading conservative/right wing blogs, simply because I like to see what passes for thinking over on that side of political aisle. But none of those will ever get to be home page! And I'd never download a browser, specifically to read them!)

Think about downloading a browser entails: clicking on it to open it. Simple, yes? This is the Internet; if I don't feel like clicking, it's an insurmountable barrier. I have to go to the supermarket, I don't have to go to your site. And then there's the maintenance: all software comes with updates. Let's say that Firefox was like Microsoft: endless updates, many of them critical and all of them requiring copious amounts of time to do. I'd not read T-Central. As it is, Firefox does have a strange update process. It's very Windows-oriented: it asks for permission to everything from the actual update to quitting once it's finished. OS X can either tell me when an update is available, and it doesn't bother asking my permission to quit. So there's a penalty to time for using a specific browser. Which makes it curious why I go to the bother; after all, why should I read T-Central? Because they offer me something I want, and am willing to actively engage in a process to obtain. That I have to figure out the process for myself, and implement it, is not mere icing on the cake. It's the fanciest icing you've ever seen!

In the end something came along to do (sleeping); I was pondering this in the middle of the night. And right now I have a deck to demolish. :-)

Carolyn Ann